this is the period of time when i find my life so meaningless. this human race to be top academically is getting really tiring. and i really feel like stoping all together. it is really really demoralising to work your butt off and found out it didnt pay off. the feeling of being lousy of yourself really puts me down. my shi fu tells me to use my brain a little more; just a little more. but i tried!!! such sheer frustration of not doing well enough can really drive a person sheer desperation too.

i have remedials for every subject - maths, chemistry and physics. and im still not doing well enough. teachers, family and friends are giving me SO much pressure. when can all this stop??!! im really sick of not doing well enough. urks!

i seem to be failing in every aspect of my life right now and i really mean it.

please please dun give me anymore prep talk.







on a more happier note, im loving kids by every visit to daybreak! hahah. there's this new p6 kid called alvin and i think he got a crush on me. OH NO! hahah. kids nowadays are maturing too quickly. anyway he kept calling me and wanting to talk to me when he has his own tutor. and when another kid told me he wanted to marry me, i freaked out! LOL. gives me the creeps! hahah. (x


if in the future i found out im unable to have children of my own, i will probably just kill myself. hahhah.

posted by pam @ 11:36 PM